I'm bringing sexy back?

So its been quite a while since I have given you guys an entry. Frankly, I am bored with your despondent asses. No one cares that I work my ass off just to get attention from you guys. But alas, no comments, not you are a crazy mother fucker, no hello, how are the kids? Or, I think you should seek psychiatric help. No anything. I even have an entry about suicide thinking that eventually someone will respond/help. NO! So what do I do. I abandon you. I run away to become an aspiring stripper. No really, I have been thinking about it. I visited my friend recently in Rhode Island, and we put on a strip show Its so much fun…. no really. I feel like you can be anything that you want to be as a stripper. Its great! You can pretend like you are the sexiest mutha fucker in the universe. Everyone watches you pump and gyrate, and it’s the best. Its like look at me as I “back that thing up.” Does that make me a slut? Maybe. Do I enjoy? Hell yeah! Am I embarrassed about it? Not so much. I think everyone has a secret hidden stripper fantasy, back in the recesses of their brain….. Like deep deep recesses, but its there. And I am here to help you bring it out. Come with me child. See the light and come. Um, so yea. I have this problem of feeling like I am devoid of the grown and sexy. So I pursue stripping to try to recapture that….wait not recapture, because I never had it….but I do like to try to persue it. What the fuck can I do to be sexy? I mean, can you share some sexiness with me too? You know how like, Kate Moss n Tyson Beckford just ooze sexiness. I mean, they are just like photographed, yet you can smell the sex on their breath. I want to do that….thus, I over compensate in bedroom. yea, I said it. I am a nasty fuck in the bed. I am grinding, stripping, wine-ing, gyrating, flipping, pumping, straddling…sorry to be so graphic…but I am like, I gotta make up for not being a sexy mutha fucker… you kno. I kno u understand, its not like I am just making out, im like making out……. so yea, help please with my affliction?